rest in peace to the wasteful youth of mine
Maret 22, 2023
i spent my high school under the curse of covid-19. to this day i cursed every grey-skirt students i saw in front of my eyes. though i know it is not their fault––definitely (and they lose their middle school years too), i somewhat still hold those grudges inside of me. It's been so natural for me to be longing for those wasted high school years that it become native to me. it's no longer hurting me, but it's there, it will be in the forever time being.
i am now eighteen––nineteen in two months. i have my blue id card in my wallet yet, i live these late teenage years with stuff i owned when i was sixteen. the naivety of sixteen-year-old me still controlling most of my everyday being. it felt like time has stopped and i will be forever sixteen. i got left in the battle with no weapon with me. lost is an understatement, i am straying away.
i often think about how fun my high school could be based on the first year of it when i was still a freshman. we couldn't be so free back then because the agit, uad, utas* system in my school was quite strict (because believe me, there's a school with a more strict system than mine). i remember buying food in the canteen and straight away going to class to eat because the seat at the canteen is for agit and several influential uad only. but even then, high school was so much fun.
imagine if i have the power of an agit...
i would be unstoppable lol, and there would be a lot of stories to tell.
me and my friends, we are now living on the life people called the 'adult life'. we moved to another city and adapt to the new life, we took care of ourselves alone, and we have more acquaintances than friends. we are miserable, and we will be forever grieving for the loss of our high school years.
best regards,
klaire x
* utas, uad, agit = satu, dua, tiga (first, second, third grader)
2 komentar
Hello girl, hang in there! Well I kinda miss my highschool life too LOL
BalasHapusWill do, thanks a bunch kak! High school is def nostalgic
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